the week stalls here, leading to an extended weekend. I was lookin' fwd to tmr at first but not anymore.

I was just reporting to von about my daily emotional upheavels and boy, she says it's bad. hm, I'd rather feel than not, I guess. I cant and shant elaborate any further. talk is useless anw; it's not gonna change nothing for tmr.

(: CHEER ME UP! ...at the very least, we're friends?
oGay then. haha.
I dont know if that means waiting when I dont know what I'll be waiting for. hm. yeah yeah, moving on seems so logical but I cant kick the habit, aiight? scoffs.
aye, meanwhile, we'll just play pretend. sometimes, I feel like I'm just as dillusional as dawn is. HAHAHA! then again, maybe not.

I like spilling out here where no one really bothers how much I drone to emo-ness. perhaps the only person getting annoyed would be myself. haha. I hate feeling so horrid and then regretting in the morning! it's like a bloody hang-over.

oh NEW FLASH! I'm so addicted to 'Princess Hours'! ahahah... I'm actually following a korean drama since winter sonata. -.- hurr. anw I enjoy it cos it's damn lame.

right. better run before my neck snaps.
adieu.

oh hello again.

school did take 1/2 the load of pms off me. (: dawn laughed till she cried again and it made me chottle even harder than I alrdy was. haha thankyou for making my day, EJ. after which, everything made me giggle, even when I'm staring into space. HUR!!! it's prolly pms driving me round in circles but at the very least, I wasnt still as glum.

well, a coupla others made me smile too! :D esp, ____. WAHAHA!
I told natasha that my wedding with thomas is annulled.

I SUBpassed my chinese, baby! imagine if I had mugged for it. woohoo! you bet I'm gonna pass my A'level chinese. go, gen, GO! I thank God for that tinge of Hope that He blesses me with, everyday.

death note was great. I think 'L' looks soo adorable! (: I'm anticipating for the sequel. QUICK!

promos are finally over and I've been living the life that was on hiatus for the longest time!

dawn and I had intended to catch 'little miss sunshine' on thursday but it was apparently not screened at lido hence we settled for 'the prestige' instead; whilst 'the black dahlia' was overrated (like many other great movies are). anyhow, we enjoyed the movie aplenty! I shant elaborate and spoil it for anyone who's planning to watch. for the little time we had left, we walked around the shops for a quick glance for fashion.

so our shopping spree continues on the next day, and I've finally gotten hold on my suspenders and capri-shorts! (: plus my sexy darkblue nail polish. awwwesome!

next up this hols, von and I have decided to do a gig at one of the diner's for alil keching!. simultaneously, yien and I will be doing another one before that as well. (: I cant wait! *prays*

aiight, I'm too tired. gdnight!

good evening and you must be wondering what hell am I doing here instead of cramming for ze most impt exam of my life. hm, beats me, but I do have smth to say.

so much has been happening to me, along with a transformation that I cant delay. I've never cared so much for the approaching year with such paradoxical feelings of immense excitement and anxiety, that it's coexistence makes me wild in raving frenzy.

my current and only propelling force is, collectively, YOU. I wont begin on what I'll be like without you 'cause I choose to believe that we'll be class/level mates again. without a doubt, we will.

I thank God for the Hope He brings amidst the dire straits I'm fixed in. Jesus died for many causes and as insignificant as this one may be, I stand firm on my belief.

for as long as I shall live, I will testify...

1 more DAY.

a weekend wasted on nothing. how inept can I get? well, it's just another 7 days to go before I face my deadliest fate. (: gen will be brave. I hope. I'm forgoing the history outline and everything else this morning cos another look at the stuff will snap me into a million shreds. God! HELP ME!

the vilest news aired yesterday and I guess you cant prepare for a shock afterall. I may have possibly held my hopes too high for him to stay cos I thought he'd be God's best pick for us. well, I guess probably not. right now, the future of SALT seems so bleak when he's going away.

I'll have tears as you take off,
but I'll cheer as you fly.

it's my second time watching the video for the 'Free Hugs Campaign' and I am once again emotionally swayed in putting this up to spread humanity.

there's always a hellova controversy over how life has become less meaningful to live for these days even though we have improved so much on a global scale, just to prolong life expectancy, slash mass diseases, eliminate poverty as far as possible and etcetera; all at the expense of ali'l compassion. coming from the observation that people in the past were more contented with life than the population today, perhaps they were also closer to their neighbours.

alternatively, there's a minor likelihood that there is still enough 'love' to go around. only that the world has multiplied a hundred times over now, it's even harder for everyone to reach out to everyone else. just as a smaller family might be knitted closer than one of a larger number, the same applies to our current situation. then again, there are a million rebuttles against that.

on another note, one of the reasons why there's a change of heart could be incongruously due to the peace that we enjoy now. in the past, when life was alot harder to live by, everyone was compelled to draw closer for survival but as life gets increasingly easier to live by, people do not get by 'thick and thin' together and thus straining relations.

in any case, it doesnt call for a seizure of efforts made for a better living. if compassion should begin, it should begin with me. (:

PS: see, joan! I told you the profession would work! hehe. HUGS!

1. how old do you wish you were?
17 - always! (:

2. where were you when 9/11 happened?
at home watching the twin towers crash.

3. what do you do when vending machines steal your money?
nothing.

4. do you consider yourself kind?
alittle, but not all the time.

5. if you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
my sexy right ankle!

6. if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
espaniol.

7. do you know your neighbours?
nope.

8. what do you consider a vacation?
to experience a unique culture with the people that I'm comfortable with.

9. do you follow your horoscope?
nope.

10. would you move for the person you love?
most probably not.

11. are you touchy feely?
quite. HAHA! :x

12. do you believe that opposites attract?
I dont know for sure.

13. dream job?
to be a celebrity. (ha, you said it's a dream!)

14. favourite tv channels?
hallmark, star world and AXN (HAHA!).

15. favourite place to go on weekends?
gardens for dinner/chillout on saturday nights and church on sundays.

16. showers or baths?
baths! (psst von, let's have bubble bath sometime! hehe)

17. do you paint your nails?
used to until I figured that I'm destroying my nails.

18. do you trust people easily?
well it depends.

19. what are your phobias?
I'm not sure for most things but I do know that I'm afraid to fall in love. HA!

20. do you want kids?
hm. you gotta start by finding me comparable suitors first.

21. do you keep a handwritten journal?
nope.

22. where would you rather be now?
nowhere else.

23. who makes you warm and fuzzy?
a hug. (:

24. heavy or light sleeper?
heavy - I think. ask aggie. lol.

25. are you paranoid?
uh huh.

26. are you impatient?
most definitely. speed is me when I'm awefully stressed out.

27. who can you relate to?
most people, I guess?

28. how do you feel about interracial couples?
normal.

29. have you been burned by love?
urgh, sadly so.

30. what's your pick-up line?
'hey! your fly's down!' hahaha, I'm kidding.

31. what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
'*whistles* TAXI!'

32. what were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping.

33. what did the last text on your mobile say?
'haha... I can start getting in shape first!'

34. whose bed did you sleep in last night?
MINE.

35. what colour shirt are you wearing?
blue.

36. most recent movie you watched?
the pink panther. hahaha lame show that made me laugh like lame.

37. name three things you have on at all times.
cell, wallet and hairband.

38. what colour are your bedsheets?
YELLOW!

39. how much cash do you have right now?
$5. HA!

40. what's your favourite part of the chicken?
thighs.

41. what's your favourite town/city?
it's Paris for now until I get to experience NewYork. (:

42. i can't wait till:
promos are over.

43. what did you have for dinner last night?
instant tomyam noodles w/ scrambled egg.

44. how tall are you barefoot?
shut up. :p

45. do you own a gun?
yes and I'm gonna shoot you after this.

46. what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
tea. anytime!

47. where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I'd rather not expect what life would be cos the essence of it lies in uncertainty. (I'll be your next Ghandi for all you might know, people! or maybe just... 'Raju'. haha)

48. last thing you ate?
chips.

49. what songs do you sing in the shower?
I dont sing in the shower.

50. last thing that made you laugh?
'my *po**y lies over the ocean...' lol.

51. worst injury you ever had?
sprained ankle, I suppose?

52. does someone have a crush on you?
like I'd know that.

53. what's your favourite candy?
chupachups COKE!

54. what song do you want played at your funeral?
good question! ask me again when I've the ans.

55. eight people to do this?
I'll name just THREE:
DAWN LEE JINGYI!
SANN & SARAH! (:

love you babes. muacks!
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damn, I took the longest time to complete this so I expect von to read it 10 times over cos I did it for her ('dya hear me li';'l one?)!

anw, I've decided to take action against my fat-issue. boys and girls, I'm not complaining/whining for no good reason, but I really need to tone up my flacid (and almost wrinkling) muscles. so I asked mummy if I could sign up for gym and surprisingly she approved! whoots! better news is, she's gonna join with me. hehehe. cool shiatness! I cant wait to look stunning. whee!

ok, break time is over and now it's BED time. (:
when there's no one else to cradle me, 'thomas, will you read to me?'
haha, ok, g'night fairies!