over the weekend, I 'scaped the norm - for once, I didnt meet up with anyone that I am close to. unevitably, it was an uneasy change but I had my due share of fun and in an unexpected way, I've come to learn abt my 'vocation', for now.

on saturday, I heard nasty stuff that some confirmants said behind my back, and even though they were fairly irrelevant, I couldnt help but feel crestfallen and irated. on top of that, ES doesnt like marv and I. hohoho, not like I give a damn abt what he thinks but dont we at least need to be on each other's side since we're facilitating together? hm, well I guess not.

another thing is, I've unofficially moved over to via cristus because I was convinced that I should sing for God with joy. however, that way, I wont be able to meet my friends. ): yeah, surely we're not suppose to go to church for our friends' sake but I miss them very much even though our relationship seems pretty dysfunctional! so, I thought to myself, I'm going to leave the choir for good. sigh, it's gonna be very difficult to break the news to them 'cause it was my first ministry and I've been there for the past 3 yrs, but I dont wanna carry on the hassle anymore. my commitment in SALT has heightened a million storeys since concamp'06 and I dont think I can juggle these things altogether.

school's been extremely harsh since the semester began... exams were crappily done and I need to put in even more effort to make sure I pass my promos! so there, I need a break. it doesnt help to hear/feel that I havent done a good job anywhere and I'm truly sorry, I'm not your superhero. I'm not who you aspired me to be.
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It might sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me