I'm sick of hearing myself whine abt life's impediments and it brings me to question if this is a sign of surrender, but to who? it doesnt feel like God is walking with me these days 'cause for one, I havent been praying much nor depending on Him. all of this is because I dont feel worthy to be Loved/Blessed by Him. what a thought. HM.

my results are crap. I have no idea how to break the bad news to my mum and on top of that, ms Merciless lim wants us to get our PR signed by tmr. :/ in the words of Dawn (the Princess, ay), "at least you're showing it to her a day before obs." O-so-wise, hor? haha. well, yeah I guess.

I was telling my friends today that I've been fighting with mum lately and she doesnt seem to care for me, like a mother should. frankly, she's only fulfilling a guardian's duty of late. you could say that I'm not the most filial daughter you've met, but that doesnt mean that I dont care.

O well.
anw, here's a song that I can relate to (and I hope it'll aid you in empathizing with me). ciao.


"Who Am I" by Casting Crowns
Verse 1:
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Pre-Chorus:
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Verse 2:
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

(Pre-Chorus)
(Chorus)
(x2)

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours I am Yours

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love, Generator.