Dear God,

just why are You doing this to me? in any case, THANKS. You have ruined everything. so what's your point in creating anything in the first place? OK. don't preach cos it's not gonna make anything different. now that You're done with messin up my life, go take her's now. it seems all too perfect to be true so Your job is to balance her's with mine? we're both Your children so we shouldnt be treated any differently. right? no, wait. WRONG. it's all abt inequalities! come to think of it, I didnt do anything wrong to deserve this! why, You mustve thought I am too much of an angel so you needed me alil badder? well, yeah. mission accomplished, God. You surely got me there cos I certainly didnt see this cmg yesterday. You made me hate everyone and now, finally, You.

*to those who expected more of me, I'm sorry. life does take you to places you think you'll nvr see.

*to those who love me, I'm trapped and I cant get outta here.

*to those who dont know me, well hello.

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Riding to an approaching storm
Clutching to the memories lost
Pleading as she fade away
Bleeding till my veins run dry
Coursing through electric lines
I’m girl interrupted

Forces that don’t exist
Creeping in when I sleep
Closer than a midnight kiss
I’m trippin’. Trippin’.
Eye to eye
Body to knife
Slicing conscience
Taking lives

I cry not tears but laughter
If only you’d known me better
Vengeance seeks the broken heart
These wounds will never heal
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