lately I've been thinkin'...

what have I done?

I didnt mean to hurt these people and nth that I do now can make anything alright. what have I done to lose it all? have I done enough to have it all back? or am I just wasting my time?

on the other hand, pride keeps getting in the way. sometimes I cant help but wonder why I'm the only person making an effort. ha, maybe I nvr meant anything to them and obviously they meant more to me than I ever thought. I guess that's why people say "you'll nvr appreciate what you've got until you lose it". I'm paying my dues big time.

FINE! I'M MISERABLE.
AND IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT, YOU'VE GOT IT.
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

if you think you never meant to me, then why do I hurt so bad?

why do I try if there's no one to reciprocrate this peace? I'll tell you smth that you dont know, I'm aching more than anyone can comprehend and YOU DONT CARE.

everyone gets a chance to be selfish, so when is it my turn?