I've been hitting point zero and waking up to sanity lasts only for awhile. it really seems as though I'm on drugs.

hold me close to You, Jesus, and never let me go.

am I schizophrenic? 'cause I feel as though I'm gonna lose it again. God!

anyway, now that I'm still sane, I'm gonna write this down to remind myself and friends that there's an angel in me that wants the best for everyone. sometimes (hmm most of the time if I must say) I let emotions and thoughts run me over and it's consequences can get very very drastic. I'm really sorry for the ones I've left out and verbally abused. well, that's really about it that I have to say abt those whom I've trespassed 'cause anything more will ruin it.

my story.
insecure about everything that I can rightfully call my own now, is solely due to the fact that I've lost everything that I once held on so dearly. I cant blame myself for being selfish and conceited, but it's not what God wants of me. everyday is a battle between following Jesus' ways versus what my instinct tells me to do. it gets really rough at times but only the little gen in me knows and God knows too. how can anyone comprehend the tight spot that I'm in for? nobody can even empathize. the little space I've created for peace has wavered. I need You by my side. I am torn.

...but I hear the church bells ringing in my head and I'm going back to the heart of worship.

P/S: I LOVE SANDRA TAN LEE MEI!!!
I'll pack prawn fritters when I visit you aye? beams. haha.