some kinda boy...

well ya see, life is filled with impending surprises to grab you off guard. just like when he decided to drop me a msg after 3 years, I wondered whyy. it's not like I've not tried all means to contact him or find him over the first year... but life moved on as hopes faded to nothing. so the question remains, whyy now? what now?

I guess in all my life, I wouldnt find another who has a life almost completely like mine and perhaps knowing him was God's way of telling me that I'm not alone. some people leave deep imprints in our hearts and we never know how.

looking back on those holidays we spent phoning, watching countless movies and going to the theme park 3 times a week, I never thought I'd recall them at all. ha, now I can picture ourselves riding on pepsi over and over again screaming "POWER TO THE PEOPLE" like we cared abt anything. life was such a bliss.

then there came a time when everything faltered for some kind of reason that I will probably not understand until the time is ripe. seasons changed winter to spring, and so did we and our lives. sometimes I wish he were there to see me through it all so that maybe, just maybe, I wouldnt have felt so lost and lonely.

if dad was right that he wants my company again, how am I suppose to get back to where I've left off? am I still capable to continue?

... until we meet again...