renewing...

as the years pass, I seem to find a different understanding at each time I attend the stations of the cross. ((: I guess I wasnt expecting anything like it to turned out at the vigil - which is gd.

it doesnt matter what has strayed me away from the One God I love and owe so much unto, but the heart that yearns to find the way back on track. "God can take me to wherever I'm afraid to go. I just hafta trust Him."

I wanted to be God's favourite angel - that is of a lower being than humans are. the cross seemed light, and my soul felt glorious - I thought my heart would nvr be weary. however, succumbing to earthly posessions and temptations led me to a deep chasm of loss and despair. until the time before I reflected, I thought I would nvr trust or love again. it seemed so easy for me to abandon the cross and then I thought I wouldnt have anything to do with God again. but He gave me peace within my soul and the hope to relive - I will survive.

riight. so that was what I gathered on the night before. back to the present.

I need to have my lunch! where is my lunch? I dont even know if mummy's buying home for me. ha. prolly starve to death. and I need to sleep. rest. alot. HAHA! it's only been 2 days and I'm already shagged to bits and pieces. I had better get my priorities right or else I will perish.

OK! that's the end of my rantings. whoever you are, your neck must be aching like mine.